Getting ready for the adventure to begin

I've dreamt and obsessed about going to Europe since I was younger then 12 years old. The other day I  found a journal from when I was 14 that had pictures and lists of all the things I wanted to do and maps of different countries glued into it with pen lines marking out the routes I planned to follow all over them, so it's pretty unreal to me that in 2 days I'll actually be on a plane to Ireland to begin my just over 3 week trip across Europe. I've never written a blog or anything before but I was already planning on keeping a journal and writing everything down and I figured that this way I wont have to worry about losing it or anything. Also, since this is online if I don't get to talk to my family very often because of the time difference and high phone costs they'll be able to see that I'm alive and I haven't been "taken" or anything. (Watched Taken and Taken 2 last week because they were on TV ~ not a great idea...but I have to say that taken 2 was pretty dumb, they should have quit while they were ahead). So anyways, since I've never written anything like this before I wanted to get it started while I'm at home so I can figure it out on the computer and then hopefully learn how to easily use it on my ipad since thats what I'll be taking with me. I'm traveling with one of my best friends in this world, the beautiful Lisa, which I am VERY excited about. I cant think of a better travel buddy and I know we're going to have the time of our lives. I do have some worries about the fact that neither of us have done anything like this before and its just the two of us girls going from foreign country to country, but I know we'll figure it out (or die trying haha too soon?) What am I looking forward to? EVERYTHING. Seriously. I'm even excited about packing and sitting on the plane which are usually the two worst parts of a trip so that should show you that I'm really freaking excited. What am I worried about? I know that once we're there everything will be great but there is the terrifying fact that I tend to get sick at the worst possible moments and my body has been known to let me down when I needed it more then once so I'm working very hard to keep the image of me stuck in our hotel room missing out on the trip of a lifetime and completely letting down myself and Lisa out of my head. For the most part thats going well but the couple times that it has crept into my head in it takes about 2 seconds for complete panic to set in. For other travelers I'm sure this amount of time seems like nothing and it probably seems like I'm overreacting but this trip is huge for me on so many levels, not only because I know it will be incredible and its one of my dreams but also because this is the biggest thing I've ever tried to take on and if I can actually do it ~ actually get myself on the plane and through the entire trip, it will be proving so much to myself. Failure is no stranger to me so getting past my anxiety and physical limits and completing almost a month of going around Europe will be monumental. Wish me luck